"It’s only 1 am but I’m still awake because I need to talk to you about the way my body aches. I want to tell you about the fear because I think it could be back again. I want to tell you that I need you here because I know it’s back again. I’m surrounded as it returns and there’s no way out. All at once I’m sinking down. I’ve started to drown with out you and the air can not be taken in anymore. It’s become water and you can’t breathe underwater so I cough and choke and cry as I drown in my ocean of fear. I need to be saved again. If only you had stayed because all that I need to be saved, is you here. Because while you’re asleep with no aches and no pains, I lie here drowning in fear."